Not sure where this one’s going to go. It’s been a frustrating day in many ways and honestly I can’t wait for the magic moment to turn on the tv or crack open a book and leave it all behind. Yet even as I write this, I glance out my window to catch six Canadian geese flying by–a symbol to me of freedom. That is, if I look up.
A big part of what’s going on with me is avoidance. I keep dancing around something God has called me to do because it will be hard and most likely painful at times. But I know too those are the tasks which also bring healing. So the question is, obedience to Adonai or frustration in rebellion and delay? We both know which one will end the angst quicker.
Still I put it off, as if by procrastination the task will simply go away. Meanwhile I swirl around in another emotional eddy.
I was reading this morning about Gideon’s call and how God told him to “‘Go in this might of yours and save Israel from the hand of Midian; do not I send you?'” And Gideon replies with, “‘Please, Lord, how can I save Israel? Behold my clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my father’s house.'” The LORD says back, “‘But I will be with you, and you shall strike the Midianites as one man.'” (Judges 6:14-16, ESV)
Today I have felt the task God has called me to do is pointless. I, like Gideon, feel weak and unable to accomplish God’s greater task. And with the overpowering feelings I’ve experienced today, I see once again how the enemy has bested me with my emotions. Argh, will I ever learn?
What God-given task are you avoiding? Do you identify with Gideon’s reply? In what way does the enemy normally, subtly get the best of you?
A final question: Would anyone out there like to guest blog on Wednesday?